till today i cant believed i'm not over you ~
I feel happy yet angry seeing you back tgt with ur ex ~

Because when we were tgt, looking back ,  i wondered were those lies that you've told me?
texting her and all too was part of the lie??

maybe it happened after everything ended but somehow or another i 
felt cheated , first was another girl and now your ex...its too much for me to accept

though nw that  we're over you have the rights to do anything but somehow again somehow 

i feel so wrong :'( 

how much i wanna be back to the days whereby we were just good friends but so much 
has happened after that line ~

You’ll always have a special place in m heart

im never good at  hiding my feelings.
I hardly find the courage to say /tell either.

Received ur text but it wasnt the answers to my questions.
i wasnt in a good state to reply at that moment.
i shall do it here , whether or not u still visit this space of "us".

yeah i will be fine if i found someone new ,but its not that easy.Yes there are guys around me and all but my heart isnt ready  or maybe i'm just not interesting in any of them .. Unlike you .....Acc to twitter!? ahhh its not what you think or sth...but i know i dont have to explain myself any further as you wont be interested any more .

I really admire you in a good /bad way how fast you could move on .My instincts were right back then about sth i cried over before...~

That special place i had in your heart may or had vanished and i hope someday i will be completely gone from here ~

i deleted all my photos in my phone except for ours ,
i dont know why either...~
i know whats going on yet i'm still holding back and holding on to this

I hope this would be the last post ~

Always wanted to make anniversary cards and all but we didnt really got tgt therefore i didnt have the chance to do it !!   I did this scrapbook so that i wont have any regrets and knowing that i've done my very very best .I want him to rmb the good times we had tgt ,pretty short 7 months~

I didnt upload all the 20 pages here as some are just too personal and for other reasons as well ~

Been almost a month since we've parted !!! We had our "last date" on 11 aug !! honestly i still haven got the answer to certain things that happened that day !~ but i shall not care anymore . I Just wanted to have a happy closure with him thats all !~ some people just got better nth to do !!!

oh well but on 12 august we had a H2H talk , knowing that he kinda miss me , knowing that he read the scrapbook and all and how he felt made me feel happy but after knowing that FACT it killed it all !:'( honestly i started to hate him though i treated him like a friend. For all that he've done to me. How cld he fall for someone else within a month or so !? I  dk since when they "started' but all i could do to comfort myself , telling myself its KARMA !!! yeah .

This 1 month i've been crying , being sad and also love drunk over him ! i cant believe i asked him to come over....I thought i was fine but i guessed I haven gotten over him after knowing what i did when i was drunk !! Been keeping myself busy and all .Yes i do feel happier now , accepting the fact that we cant be tgt after all ~ Probably also seeing him being sad over another girl instead of us made me feel its not worth it anymore !!!! its just too fast that he've gotten over meeeee !!! This shows how insignificant i am in his heart ~

Maybe i'm running away from reality, living in denial .Thinking i am all fine and happy,whats the truth !?!?

ME MYSELF AND I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA !!!;"(

but i really do hope he's doing fine and not going back to smoking and all ~

hopefully , someday we will become good friends agn , perhaps when i have zero feelings for him i guessed :x 

take care , my love ~

I miss you ~ yet i cant do anything bout it !!!

Afraid to face reality ~

Been almost 3 weeks since i last saw him, i cant believed that i missed that chance to see him before he went to club that night on 25 july....but i had no choice. I had was part of a surprise birthday for my gf.But things wld still change right?. 


Tmr shall be it . Initially. i knew what i want to say to him and be in his arms till times' out.But now i'm feeling all lost .I'm afraid .Because during this 3 weeks apart,he's been hanging out with the girl he likes and i cant stop thinking about it and all.Its so unfair when i'm feeling all fucked up sad and depressed , though with my friends ,he's enjoying himself with her and all.Cant imagine if they do the things we 've done tgt :'(

Gonna pack his stuff and see him leave.This will be one of the most painful part i guessed.....i wonder how am i supposed to go to bed later .I've done everything i've could to salvage this but sadly he already loves me no more.But after tmr , i  hope i will slowly let go knowing i've done my best .I dont wannt live with regrets .The stuff i've made for him is sth i really wanted to give him if we were tgt but sadly not and so i hope its to mark the closure of 7th jan 2012 :'(

i really love you ,but you've left with someone else

so much i do not know where to begin.
I know how much he wants me to forget him and all but i really cant.He said i needed time, a month or so .Yes i will be smiling and perhaps leading my life per normal.But whats deep down in my heart he will nv see and nv know agn ! its not like i drank "mengPo"soup !!! I really regret not learning fast enough to trust him because faith and trust is the root of all relationships. FUCK ME !!!:<
We didnt get to start one but i treated him  liked my bf all long.

When he left me hanging i was really suffering, i was crying, i was in great great pain !but he carried on with his  life. i was sick i called for him , he were nowhere to be found. He was happy being with his friends, and worst of all , had a crush or maybe fallen in love with someone else...~ this is what i could not accept :'( i've gotten replaced so quickly?
all along i was just a companion ?
a nobody? 
i'm such a failure!

Few days passed, i'm hearing more heartfelt words from him , it was comforting too when he asked me to cheerup .But i'm aint strong like him and my love has not faded drastically like his.

We were both broken hearted people who came tgt, and now my heart is being broken again by someone i wished it wasnt ~

The one that got away ~

Beautiful in white ~

Not sure if you know this

But when we first met

I got so nervous I couldn't speak

In that very moment

I found the one and

My life had found its missing piece

......

Dearest~  Kerwin
Did I hear you right'Cause I thought you saidLet's think it over
You have been my lifeAnd I never plannedGrowing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the lightWhere a love once shined so brightCame without a reason
Don't let go on us tonightLove's not always black and whiteWell, haven't I always loved you?
But when I need youYou're almost hereAnd I know that's not enough
But when I'm with youI'm close to tears'Cause you're only almost here
I would change the worldIf I had a chanceOh, won't you let me
Treat me like a childThrow your arms around mePlease protect me
Bruised and battered by your wordsDazed and shattered how it hurtsOh, haven't I always loved you
But when I need youYou're almost hereAnd I know that's not enough
And when I'm with youI'm close to tears'Cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your wordsDazed and shattered now it hurtsHaven't I always loved you
But when I need youYou're almost here(Well, I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
And when I hold youYou're almost here(Well, I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
And now I'm with youI'm close to tears'Cause I know I'm almost hereOnly almost here

Wonder whats going on ? perhaps,most prolly he's leading his life per normal , asking me to do the same but sorry i cant.! where do i stand ??? we have problems that i wanna fix it but he never wanted to talk to me and fix it tgt as a whole ~ am i supposed to watch you leave,give us up or just  wait for directions :'( trust was part of the big issue but i can tell  him i trust him if ......and it really got better after that BIG fight! sigh ~ i know he sort of got reunited with the clique he missed most i guess...!!! trying my best to know him better and all ...i never wanted to spent a moment apart....some may say give me up because i'm this and that ...everyone wants to lead a simple life without dramas without too much quarrels .! we barely tried officially , i know we can do it if we try...but he's tired of trying,he probably felt better with his friends now ~ i'm so afraid this period of time he wld fall for someone else or sth ...no text no nth....i dont wanna pressurized him either....we used to comfort each other before getting "tgt" and now i feel useless not being able to do so anymore...and i wished he cld comfort me too liked before...those days!!~ i want to be the one who change ur life,make u smile and make your life better . i want you to tell me "you;ve changed my life ard " ~ but i guess now i'm doing the total opposite!?!? we once said , ( i might be a good friend but not a good lover ) i wanna prove that wrong now by saying i can be your good friend and lover. Its easier said than done.But i believe  if we talk it out seriously,face to face, we will find a solution to US ~


i wanna be a better person for you , for the uknown future ahead of us. I got ignored,pushed away by you each time i try come closer to you now, it hurts so much . So much i  missed being in ur arms agn , hearing you say that you love me .All that has stopped every since few weeks back ? All i want is a simple life with you , feel special thats all . Of course we need to have our own space with our friends and all but sometimes i wonder why you dont call me along anymore ? is there sth wrong with me ???


I've done my best ,i tried everything to save us but now it lies with him. Everyday my heart beats so fast,feeling the anxiety of the answer i've been waiting for ~i live in fear not wanting you to know my weakness , not wanting to know i'm always here for u so that u wldnt take advantage of that. but its killing me inside.....good and bad times we braved tgt , now .........whats the ending?


i really wanna know how u feel about me honestly now ,
i was tired too , i had the thought of giving us up but i didnt want to .


holding on ,waiting for you to tell me ......to leave or to stay :'(.

i want us to be fine <3

it hurts so bad , 
its so pain 
its unbearable :'(


Why

Do you know ?

Reading the previous post i wrote was kinda harsh ,sorry but i in a state of MIX emotions and all! Maybe you wont noticed but i find that you're probably getting sick and tired of me . you said you dont wanna disturb me etc...but i guessed you just dont wanna talk to me or there's nth much to talk bout ? righT? too paranoid at times ,i admit but your actions are making me more afraid of many things now .

17july :

After sch i was deciding if i should go look for you . I felt that you left me hanging .I received no texts from you , only tweets to the world i had to find out from there that you want  time out.whole night, whole time in lect i was thinking n thinking....i cldnt slp , i fell ill in the night which u didnt know , i felt terrible...i kept crying and crying....i literally cld feel my heart aching ! i SWEAR !!!! :'( WHY WHY WHY  it hurts so bad why not we just end it right???  but i dont want to . i dont wanna lose you and everything..i sat downstairs your block , stonning and i started crying to myself thinking all that had happened was seriously a nightmare ...went to help you buy food and before i entered ur place i texted u and the replies were encouraging but still i stood outside ur house for another 45 mins, i was afraid, scared and all that might happen.Surprisingly you were happy and all , i' m glad you were happy and all after being angsty at me...i saw the total opposite of me at that time when i saw u, but i'm glad you're happy.i really wanted to talk to you bout this SNOWBALL PROBLEM , 

but when i asked why didnt u text me instead of tweeting all you replied: I DK ! watch tvesssss **** sigh i just gave up talking bout the rest.....

seeing you at that point , made me feel XYZ! i wished u wld hugged me tightly and say dont leave me liked  you did when u were back from taiwan...but this tme round you were the one who wanted to leave ~  but i was touched you gave me medicine & all ~ after i woke up i felt really giddy and still unwell ~

i had to work , i wished i didnt, to have more time with you ! when i left you didnt even text me at all :'(  i felt it was really the end....sigh you will be clubbing later in the night, with ur army friends and with ur clique of gfs~ i'm really not used to it , i cannot accept it but i know to make it work i have try~~~~ 

just i dk why you wont ask me anymore.....i'm too bad to be seen with you infront of your friends??? thats why u know why i feel paranoid and insecure when u kept asking your gfs instead of me...~ not that i wanna tag every single time....! just feel unwanted by you now a days !!~ i need assurance and a good talk bout this :'( if not it will keep on dragging :( 

the only thing stucked in my head is ( you couldnt take my insecurities anymore and it was overbearing ) and all the tweets you tweeted that night....) i really wished you didnt tell the whole world .. it was hurting to see what you said ....

i dk how u cld live your life normally now !? whereas i'm suffering like shit : ( is this my karma ? i'm missing you here and all while you .........sigh guess clubbing is all you're looking forward to now....hopefully we will have a great H2H talk after that .

16 july 2012


I've been feeling upset all these while but nv felt this extreme since my last broke up . 
To me though we aint tgt, it felt liked we just broken up .


Yeah i wished you wouldnt club this wednesday . 
Honestly i keep saying i have faith n trust in you 
but deep inside mb 80 % is true ~ 
Also because u've just recovered i dont want u to fall sick agn and smoke agn ! 


you dont know how worried am i !
though i was damn tired last wed i stayed up just to wait for you ~

seeing your tweet, you're at your breaking point? 
i was at mine too few days back but i didnt want to give up !
u said i have nth , yeah i have nth now ! happy???


i know you 've done me no wrong....i know i did !! 
do you know how i felt when u post everything in twitter...
make me feel like a failure..
tell the whole world how bad am i ! 
i  know you sure confine ur gfs for comfort.while i'm here just suffering alone..



WHY DONT U FREAKING TELL ME IN MY FACE AND COME TALK TO ME!


YES I'VE DONE YOU WRONG I DANCED WITH OTHER GUYS BUT I'VE CHANGED !!!
fuck I REJECTED ALL MY FRIENDS FOR CLUBBING FOR YOU ! DONT YOU KNOW...I KNOW YOU DIDNT ASKED ME TO BUT I HOPED YOU SAW THAT EFFORT !!!


 TIME OUT !? WHY AGN DONT TELL ME INSTEAD...! I HAVE TO GUESS EVERY MOVE AND STALK YOU TO KNOW???? YOU WANNA GIVE UP YOU WANNA TELL ME YOU'RE DONE PLEASE TELL ME  FACE TO FACE...


DONT LEAVE ME HANGING !!! SO MUCH I WANNA BE WITH YOU !  .....TILL I'VE LOST FAITH N HOPE TO THAT DAY BECAUSE YOU SAID WE KEEP QUARRELLING !TRUE ,,,, ~ BUT ....SIGH !!! I've MADE MYSELF UNAVAILABLE TO ANY OTHER GUYS BECAUSE TO ME I'M YOURS ~ I KNOW I'M AT FAULT, I'M NOT PUSHING ANY BLAME TO YOU OR STH...BUT I HOPE U KNOW HOW I FEEL ....I KNOW HOW U FEEL FRUSTRATED WHEN I DONT TRUST U AND ALL ~ BUT ITS A CLUB AFTER ALL ! SEEING YOU TWEET TO YOUR FRIENDS LIKE U CARE SO MUCH BOUT THEM MORE THAN ME AT TIMES ! ALL I WANT IS YOU FEEL SPECIAL AND THE ONLY ONE ...NOT SAYING YOU HAVE TO THROW UR FRIENDS ASIDE OR SEVERE ALL TIES WITH UR GIRL FRIENDS !!!

I KNOW BRINGING UP MY PAST IS an excuse but i'm feeling all insecure because of everything i've encountered...i know it isnt fair to treat u like this and all ...but you heard my stories known most of them ...i'm unlike ur ex'es......i'm different...probably i'm different to handle and all !~ i've also cheated on my ex.....knowing karma exist , hoping you wont be the one who will be my karma in return ~


we've been "tgt" for 7 months without any status....but to me we''re a couple...just that we dont celebrate our love,and hold hands in public..... i was so glad that ive found a good friend as my "bf" but now i guess its all gone....why did i put my hopes so high !~ now i'm the only one feeling disappointed , putting on a brave front and all ~ i guessed i probably didnt left a great impact in your life compared to the rest .~ i hope this time out gets back to time or we wld talk things out. feeing horrible miserable on my side...i wonder how bout you ?..but am so sick now i just wanna have peace~ all that i've been through last week was hell ....i bet you didnt know ~ 


youve stopped saying you love me , i know sth is wrong !~ or maybe i think too much !!


i've fallen so deeply in love with you ~


just tell me you wanna give us up so i will have no choice but  to leave ~


love,cress 

Overwhelming emotions:'( too much for me to handle or maybe my period 's coming thats why i feel more emotional :x dk if this is an excuse or its scientific proven ! Since NDP i already felt not too good . i've spent all my energy waking you up etc ..was kinda restless and moodless after that..end up i was kinda disappointed too  that we missed NDP but it was alright . After seeing your tweet, i guessed you were saying my heart and soul was somewhere else but actually not.! i know sometimes the both of us are glued to our phones when we;re supposed to spend quality time thats why i was damn sian :x!

sometimes when i ask you something or when i changed from all smiley to all quiet and all means something is wrong but i seldom voice it out :( i dont wanna spoil what we're enjoying.

monday sch started and all for me ...to be honest i wasnt enjoying any bit of it and i felt shitty bout sch but i forced myself to like it ! on tuesday i was so excited for you to get your marksman but apparently i dk why i didnt received ur text and all went into misunderstandings and all as after i saw ur checkin for supper and tweets i was damn upset all over agn ! liked  i wasnt the first to know and all . though its sth small it meant something to me .Wedneday you booked out , another night you went to club with ur army friends.. i went blading not keep my mind from thinking and all ! my friends saw you and said you werent with any girl. i felt good bout that night till you told me you were with ur girl friends too ! that killed everything...i dk what happened  , dont wanna know but inside its killing me. agn you smoked :( its no big deal but its bout how diff u were ..... rmb u chased after me when i was upset that you smoked..you cried and told me you tried ur best , its very diff etc ....i was fine bout it after !...the second time at helipad when u bought a pack of cigg, i said few stuff and you told me " dont make a scene here"  i felt !@#$%^& !!!!  and i know you always get frustrated and all  when i ask .....I dont wanna care and ask anymore seriously but thinking about how you deal with it from the start and now make me wonder ~~

yeah smoking bonds you and your friends tgt....prolly i'm not a smoker i dont understand but i know its easier to make new friends and all when u smoke but i really pray that you wont even smoke anymore even for any reasons...sometimes i feel like trying to be a smoker to know how its like so i cld be more understandable towards you !~ its silly  childish to have that thought but ....sigh

but i'm glad you cut down a lot :D

i always put you my first priority for everything ! i have my own plans but i wld always rather choose to be with you if i can though sometimes i out with my friends~after work on sat i saw that u were dying of boredom and all i wished i cld fly back !

you say we quarrel too often , yes i think so too ~ probably we nv really talk bout it . but i know we've passed the honeymoon period , being pretty too comfortable with each other now and all ~

there will be times i feel like giving up , i feel tired alrd....its getting nowhere....seeing you say you give up makes me even more upset....i wont give up till you really want it i guessed....

i'm so afraid that everything will just snap any moment and all will be gone ~

:'(

If only fairytale exist :')

Insecurities remains unchanged~ 


pretty upset....
i bet he doesnt know that i took halfday off camp for him ,
in the end he ends up clubbing....
even though i cld see the effort he puts in to acc me as much ...
i dont wanna take any bit of his happiness away
but try to add to it...but sometimes its difficult ~


yeah i guessed its prolly diff to club tgt now a days ...
we cant danced and clubbed like 7th jan , could we???
i really wished we cld , xx




i asked my friends if  it is  alright to always put him my 1st priority?


I think i should because army boys are diff , 
they cant really choose when they wanna book out :x 
thats why i always do it that way ~


we are all still young , we should live the life and party as much as we wanna 


but when will we ever start settling down?

Its hard not to talk bout it , 

bottling it inside doesn't feel good either .

I saw u packing that pack of cigg with my own eyes,

my heart sank , telling myself that maybeb its not yours.....

When we met, i smelt it and then confirmed you smoked

but agn , mb u were helping ur friend hold it for a sec or so ...

Deep down i wanna know the truth ,

but knowing you wld feel frustrated i didnt ask ,

i wished u wld tell me urself if u did or did not 

and why :(


i dont mind you smoking at all ,
but obviously wld wish u quit totally !!!
sigh just tell meeee

OH we so silly !!

I had no idea how much you love me !!!

you had no idea how much

I LOVE YOU TOO !!!

to be continued ~ yawns x.x

So Touched !!! <3

I MISS YOU , MY BOY❤ ~


Though you book out everyday , we barely have time for each other :( poor you so busy with AOH & all ~ and whats up ahead gonna be so torturing too :( cant imagine another 3 weeks + maybe more overseas trip !!! so sucky :( sigh but what to do ~ army !!!!


i wanna tell you  that i appreciate every lil time you;ve spent with me despite how tired u are etc !❤ esp fetching me from work ....its been long since someone did that and the feeling like :D:D:D but i guessed we both were damn tired :( 


and actualy i regret texxting you those drunk texts but sooner or later i will have to let u know ~ wanting to keep it to myself but i know i will explode someday ~. sigh i feel so stupid now !!! i want you to talk to me bout it and i dont :x so embarrassing ~


neyways, i wished you were here with me :( just miss you so much !!! and just feel so vulnerable agn ~

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love~

Trust,Faith...

I do not know when will you ever drop by this place and chance upon this post but this is the only place where i felt that i cld open up to ~ Actually i wished i cld tell u how i felt all these  in person but each time i tried to , i failed ! (maybe only when there's alcohol in me ) 


I know you have no problems trusting me etc...you dont feel anything when i talk to my guy friends or go out with them from what u told me . But after that night at zouk i guessed i ruined it....yeah i know i cant drink and yet  i  still  drink like FREEEEE !!! end up dancing with guys even with you ard..!! Honestly i hate dancing with guys unless i have feelings for them but all these becomes bullshit once i cant control myself ~if i were u i wld feel the same ...even though i apologized and all i still feel guilty...~ it disappointing to see you smoke agn ...i know its common and all but since u decided to quit why smoke agn :( i know its partly because of me...but your health is sth you should treasure too ~ but i was glad i saw u that night...and after what Cheryl talked to me bout everything i realised yes u do love me a lot ~ I'm sorry ~


I know too much of insecurities wld ruin everything right now ~ but tell me how not to :( i tried.....but its so damn difficult.....sometimes i feel alright sometimes its killing me inside !!! i kept telling myself its normal and all because i do the same to ~ rmb u once told me u wont fall for someone if u had a "gf" but maybe crushes or admire someone else....i'm so afraid this day wld come..... ~.....i dk when did i become so afraid of losing someone ...maybe i've lost it years back ~  i dont have confidence in myself etc after listening to all your past love stories...~though i cant rmb all& i cant rmb who were they~ i know you still talk to ur ex in twitter or text....i happen to glance at it once but i dk if its just that time or what but u said u hardly talk to her alrd...so ....~ yeah but i dk ah ~some of ur gfs i know its fine but some i just feel like - (i just wanna ignore you )!  its so tiring to feel insecure and all most of the time....but everything just fall backs into place  after u hold me tight and all ~ 


Sometimes i wished we remained as good friends....not saying we're bad as lovers....but its diff ~  If not that i 've not fallen for you , i wld just stop all these but now,  i wish we wld be tgt soon , i hope to make things work though i have lots to work on :')


Cherish every single moment with you , be it big or small ~


youre more important than you realised <3

HEHEHE k's graduation tmr !!! so proud of him...
guessed he;s having some mix feeling , like how i felt during my graduation ~ 
 i guessed their bonds are pretty strong....

A night to remember !♥
I  remembered you said sth like its supposed to give both of us a clearer idea of what we both really want after you came back from your trip ...(before you left when we kinda quarrelled badly:x) but i'm glad everything was fine.....


To be honest i was having a mix feeling awaiting for you to be back ~ its not a good & bad thing actually ....but when i saw you everything was back to normal :) probably i was feeling kinda sick too !! LOL....hahahs but you know we felt awkward + shy when we saw each other agn for like after 3 + + weeks ....heh so funny i dk why ....


but it felt like we're starting over & over agn each time it happens ~


It felt really good to be back in your arms agn ~ the cuddles i've been missing during the  last few weeks ~ i enjoy H2H talks with you ~ when you asked me if i know that you love me lots and all , i felt damn touched !! :O because at that moment i had your assurance and i just found the faith i've lost during these few months ~ hope this feeling doesnt fade <3 if u heard me too ,  i told u i love you back too ! omg i think its like the first time i told u when i'm sobber :x hahahas other than those ( distractions ) heh !!! that feeling felt so good liked we just had  fallen in love agn!! and and you told me not to leave you ~ but in my heart though i was happy to hear that,i was feeling more vulnerable than you can nv imagine :x

 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Day 19 - 6 may 
 Finally marks the 11'th day of work !!! finally over :D and now just received your whatapp , which means you're  a free man now :) tmr i will be gone for genting :( which means i doubt i can text ya :3 sigh ...but i guess you will have lotsa girls to text :( hmmph ~ 

ah see you on wed <3


sigh i made you disappointed + angry :( but really i didnt mean to not tell u ! becase it really slipped of my mind , i thought i did and all ......11 days of work isnt a joke :( hope you dont get mad at me for long :'( dont wanna spoil this feeling of getting to see you soon in just no time :(

Day 18 - 5 may

Today had no piano lessons because it;s a holiday i guessed :x haven had lessons for a long LONG LONG TIME :x!!! anyways went to work ~ 
 AND AND I SAW MY SECONDARY SCH FRIEND WORKING !


he owns his own business and he was having some workshop for plant decoration stuff..pretty cool !!! didnt have time to catch up with him as i didnt have any breaks!!! LOL after work while we were washing etc....the 
DELIFRANCE ppl gave us a lot of food ...imagine 4 of us working and each of us had a bag full of food ^^ and the girl told me that someone from there said i'm (XXXXXX) omg blush!!! later u say i BHB !!! so i shant type it here :P


anyways my friend min quan waited for me to end work and we chill at starbucks...chat for like till midnight and i trained home !!! my phone was in silent mode and it was in my bag:/ i didnt know u called !!! TWICE :'( hope u will call tmr before i leave for genting and seeyou on WED :D:D:D


so tired , doesnt feel like a saturday to me and all my energey drained alrd :(  


10/11 day working ....OH MAN 

Day 17 - 4 may


0216AM: its raining heavily ,i wished you were here with me , cuddling tgt underneath the blanky <3

Day 16 - 3 may


Work started at 4 today therefore i cld wake up later than usual after such a LONG LONG TIME ^^ !!! heh..today had to go to ps outlet ....which i dont really like..:x surrounded by a few fried food stalls !! YUCKS lol!! but there's a curry puff stall opp damn nice..next time i shall buy some for ya !!:D heheheeh


supposed to end at 1030PM but we ended ard 1050 PM and i heard we wont get paid beyond 1030 :( OH NO OOOOOOO !:( 


3 more days to go and i'm DONE with work and here comes my 1 week of holiday i've given myself :) and when i'm back from genting ,you're back too <3 

Day 15 - May 2

First day of work at Hic-cup !!!! lucky i was working at the cashier all the time !!! I wanted to be the one making drinks but end up i had to do front of house  but it was way better :) not so scary as i thought because of my experience as a front desk marble slab etc....just helped a lil at the back when i cld ~ 

I love working at US than PS because much nearer (except for the long walking dist from the MRT ) !  i woke up at 1130 and cld reach work on time at 1200 even though i bathed :) 4 mins MRT ride away >>> but still gotta run between PS too :( sigh pieee but my friend's there so both is alright :D

So many cute adorable kids esp babies ....really metls !!! felt like running out of the shop to take photo and play with them man :x heh !!!!..and you cld see many rich taitai ...all the great mothers fetching their kids from tuition etc ..LOL

 

7/11 days working and my legs are dying !!! 

and today's washing so terrible !!! so many :(

heheh you called just right after i ended work and hearing from your voice i cld really tell you;re damn tired and "suffering"poor boy :( dont worry 7 days more and your back !4 more days of training for you too:) hell yeah ^^ 

Day 14 - 1 may

Its labour day and i had to work !!! without 1.5 double pay !:( only terence & i were working at the amenities department ! but it was alright after all because there werent much arrivals that day !!!


Went to cut my fringe with terence and another friend from the same department! i actually still dk if i should cut or not but since graduation is coming better cut first or else i will look like AH HAI !!!! LOL Went home pretty early and did the house chores ~


Bernice came to find me at my place followed by Kevin,!!! He always treat me damn nice ! He just got back from genting and bought me like a box vintage luggage as i told him i liked these kinda stuff before ...so  nice of him ..SIgh i feel bad :x


HEHEHE HAPPY TO RECEIVE YOUR CALL AGN !! ^^

Day 13 - 30 april

Today's my 5/11 days working .! when i wake up every morning i really wished i cld take MC or sth  ! really tired :( i slp like before 3 am everyday ....!! its good but not enough slp :( 


haven been working at amenities ritz carlton for a week alrd but lucky i still rmb most of the things..!!! After work, went to eat dinner with Terence before heading home because he was working n i had no food at home except for maggi :(!!!


my mom went to korea therefore i had to make sure everything at home is fine and done too !! supposed to club tonight because tmr is LABOUR day ..however because of work and all i said no despite all the benedits i will be getting !!! OMG cant believe it ..but i know i can do it ^^ hehehhehe



Guessed you;re busy or you forgot my number :( no calls from you today  .....

Day 10 , Day 11 , Day 12 - 27 ,28, 29 april

Was the first day of the yatch show at one degree fifteen at sentosa cove !! had to travel pretty far !! but for the money and for the advantages i endured ^^ ....my job was pretty simple like doing registration ! this event was quite a luxurious event ! many things happened but i will tell u if i rmb ! too much to typed...


BUT  the highlight of this job was ......to meet different class /types of people !! when i saw their name cards ...its like jaw dropped !!! :O  got brokers/traders/pilots/rolls-royce peeps/actors and more !!!! and and the  BEST PART WAS TO SEE THE BEAUTIFUL YATCH ! THOUGH THE SUN WAS SCOTCHING HOT , IT WAS WORTH IT ! we didnt get to go int he yatch though because its invites/appointments !!


During these 3 days there were private parties on the yatch ....DAMN COOL....!! saw my friend's brother and he was so excited bout it ! and saw my friend david hoon too !!! all the rich kids ...tsk !!!!


OH YEAH and the BMW - M6 damn powerful man ..the test drive was too POWERFUL that the closure door  kept banging !!!


made new friends etc !!! total $240 earned ^^ but end up OT without getting paid...thats why kinda sad plus one of the woman in charge is horrible i swear !!!! but yeah this is the working world !~ 


if we have the money we should go there to eat someday !:) i really love the sceneries there etc <3 meltsss!!

After work on day 2 i went to my bestie birthday party ..!!! you know i took mrt n bus just to save money :x and her friend send me home after that ! hehehehe there were like many ppl i dk !lol but i was damn tired and all ....but my bbf b;day that i cant give a missed ! and you called halfway :D hehehehe after like 5 days !! HAPPY PIEEE  and yeah u know i didnt consume any alcohol except 2 alcoholic gummy bears :x!!! LOL  so proud of myelf :D hehehehee

After work on the last day , day 3 ! i went to vivo to meet my girls !!!the food was great but my heart really aches like SHIT !!! shall not say it here in case someone sees it :x yeah but i spent a lot including the debt i had to pay my friend for the elephant ride during my bali trip way back !when igot home i was really depressed...like


all my 3 days hard earned money all GONE ! just like that :'(


heh  !! you'll be back by my side in time to come <3 cant wait !!!!