i deleted all my photos in my phone except for ours ,
i dont know why either...~
i know whats going on yet i'm still holding back and holding on to this

I hope this would be the last post ~

Always wanted to make anniversary cards and all but we didnt really got tgt therefore i didnt have the chance to do it !!   I did this scrapbook so that i wont have any regrets and knowing that i've done my very very best .I want him to rmb the good times we had tgt ,pretty short 7 months~

I didnt upload all the 20 pages here as some are just too personal and for other reasons as well ~

Been almost a month since we've parted !!! We had our "last date" on 11 aug !! honestly i still haven got the answer to certain things that happened that day !~ but i shall not care anymore . I Just wanted to have a happy closure with him thats all !~ some people just got better nth to do !!!

oh well but on 12 august we had a H2H talk , knowing that he kinda miss me , knowing that he read the scrapbook and all and how he felt made me feel happy but after knowing that FACT it killed it all !:'( honestly i started to hate him though i treated him like a friend. For all that he've done to me. How cld he fall for someone else within a month or so !? I  dk since when they "started' but all i could do to comfort myself , telling myself its KARMA !!! yeah .

This 1 month i've been crying , being sad and also love drunk over him ! i cant believe i asked him to come over....I thought i was fine but i guessed I haven gotten over him after knowing what i did when i was drunk !! Been keeping myself busy and all .Yes i do feel happier now , accepting the fact that we cant be tgt after all ~ Probably also seeing him being sad over another girl instead of us made me feel its not worth it anymore !!!! its just too fast that he've gotten over meeeee !!! This shows how insignificant i am in his heart ~

Maybe i'm running away from reality, living in denial .Thinking i am all fine and happy,whats the truth !?!?

ME MYSELF AND I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA !!!;"(

but i really do hope he's doing fine and not going back to smoking and all ~

hopefully , someday we will become good friends agn , perhaps when i have zero feelings for him i guessed :x 

take care , my love ~

I miss you ~ yet i cant do anything bout it !!!

Afraid to face reality ~

Been almost 3 weeks since i last saw him, i cant believed that i missed that chance to see him before he went to club that night on 25 july....but i had no choice. I had was part of a surprise birthday for my gf.But things wld still change right?. 


Tmr shall be it . Initially. i knew what i want to say to him and be in his arms till times' out.But now i'm feeling all lost .I'm afraid .Because during this 3 weeks apart,he's been hanging out with the girl he likes and i cant stop thinking about it and all.Its so unfair when i'm feeling all fucked up sad and depressed , though with my friends ,he's enjoying himself with her and all.Cant imagine if they do the things we 've done tgt :'(

Gonna pack his stuff and see him leave.This will be one of the most painful part i guessed.....i wonder how am i supposed to go to bed later .I've done everything i've could to salvage this but sadly he already loves me no more.But after tmr , i  hope i will slowly let go knowing i've done my best .I dont wannt live with regrets .The stuff i've made for him is sth i really wanted to give him if we were tgt but sadly not and so i hope its to mark the closure of 7th jan 2012 :'(

i really love you ,but you've left with someone else

so much i do not know where to begin.
I know how much he wants me to forget him and all but i really cant.He said i needed time, a month or so .Yes i will be smiling and perhaps leading my life per normal.But whats deep down in my heart he will nv see and nv know agn ! its not like i drank "mengPo"soup !!! I really regret not learning fast enough to trust him because faith and trust is the root of all relationships. FUCK ME !!!:<
We didnt get to start one but i treated him  liked my bf all long.

When he left me hanging i was really suffering, i was crying, i was in great great pain !but he carried on with his  life. i was sick i called for him , he were nowhere to be found. He was happy being with his friends, and worst of all , had a crush or maybe fallen in love with someone else...~ this is what i could not accept :'( i've gotten replaced so quickly?
all along i was just a companion ?
a nobody? 
i'm such a failure!

Few days passed, i'm hearing more heartfelt words from him , it was comforting too when he asked me to cheerup .But i'm aint strong like him and my love has not faded drastically like his.

We were both broken hearted people who came tgt, and now my heart is being broken again by someone i wished it wasnt ~

The one that got away ~

Beautiful in white ~

Not sure if you know this

But when we first met

I got so nervous I couldn't speak

In that very moment

I found the one and

My life had found its missing piece

......