So Touched !!! <3

I MISS YOU , MY BOY❤ ~


Though you book out everyday , we barely have time for each other :( poor you so busy with AOH & all ~ and whats up ahead gonna be so torturing too :( cant imagine another 3 weeks + maybe more overseas trip !!! so sucky :( sigh but what to do ~ army !!!!


i wanna tell you  that i appreciate every lil time you;ve spent with me despite how tired u are etc !❤ esp fetching me from work ....its been long since someone did that and the feeling like :D:D:D but i guessed we both were damn tired :( 


and actualy i regret texxting you those drunk texts but sooner or later i will have to let u know ~ wanting to keep it to myself but i know i will explode someday ~. sigh i feel so stupid now !!! i want you to talk to me bout it and i dont :x so embarrassing ~


neyways, i wished you were here with me :( just miss you so much !!! and just feel so vulnerable agn ~

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love~

Trust,Faith...

I do not know when will you ever drop by this place and chance upon this post but this is the only place where i felt that i cld open up to ~ Actually i wished i cld tell u how i felt all these  in person but each time i tried to , i failed ! (maybe only when there's alcohol in me ) 


I know you have no problems trusting me etc...you dont feel anything when i talk to my guy friends or go out with them from what u told me . But after that night at zouk i guessed i ruined it....yeah i know i cant drink and yet  i  still  drink like FREEEEE !!! end up dancing with guys even with you ard..!! Honestly i hate dancing with guys unless i have feelings for them but all these becomes bullshit once i cant control myself ~if i were u i wld feel the same ...even though i apologized and all i still feel guilty...~ it disappointing to see you smoke agn ...i know its common and all but since u decided to quit why smoke agn :( i know its partly because of me...but your health is sth you should treasure too ~ but i was glad i saw u that night...and after what Cheryl talked to me bout everything i realised yes u do love me a lot ~ I'm sorry ~


I know too much of insecurities wld ruin everything right now ~ but tell me how not to :( i tried.....but its so damn difficult.....sometimes i feel alright sometimes its killing me inside !!! i kept telling myself its normal and all because i do the same to ~ rmb u once told me u wont fall for someone if u had a "gf" but maybe crushes or admire someone else....i'm so afraid this day wld come..... ~.....i dk when did i become so afraid of losing someone ...maybe i've lost it years back ~  i dont have confidence in myself etc after listening to all your past love stories...~though i cant rmb all& i cant rmb who were they~ i know you still talk to ur ex in twitter or text....i happen to glance at it once but i dk if its just that time or what but u said u hardly talk to her alrd...so ....~ yeah but i dk ah ~some of ur gfs i know its fine but some i just feel like - (i just wanna ignore you )!  its so tiring to feel insecure and all most of the time....but everything just fall backs into place  after u hold me tight and all ~ 


Sometimes i wished we remained as good friends....not saying we're bad as lovers....but its diff ~  If not that i 've not fallen for you , i wld just stop all these but now,  i wish we wld be tgt soon , i hope to make things work though i have lots to work on :')


Cherish every single moment with you , be it big or small ~


youre more important than you realised <3

HEHEHE k's graduation tmr !!! so proud of him...
guessed he;s having some mix feeling , like how i felt during my graduation ~ 
 i guessed their bonds are pretty strong....

A night to remember !♥
I  remembered you said sth like its supposed to give both of us a clearer idea of what we both really want after you came back from your trip ...(before you left when we kinda quarrelled badly:x) but i'm glad everything was fine.....


To be honest i was having a mix feeling awaiting for you to be back ~ its not a good & bad thing actually ....but when i saw you everything was back to normal :) probably i was feeling kinda sick too !! LOL....hahahs but you know we felt awkward + shy when we saw each other agn for like after 3 + + weeks ....heh so funny i dk why ....


but it felt like we're starting over & over agn each time it happens ~


It felt really good to be back in your arms agn ~ the cuddles i've been missing during the  last few weeks ~ i enjoy H2H talks with you ~ when you asked me if i know that you love me lots and all , i felt damn touched !! :O because at that moment i had your assurance and i just found the faith i've lost during these few months ~ hope this feeling doesnt fade <3 if u heard me too ,  i told u i love you back too ! omg i think its like the first time i told u when i'm sobber :x hahahas other than those ( distractions ) heh !!! that feeling felt so good liked we just had  fallen in love agn!! and and you told me not to leave you ~ but in my heart though i was happy to hear that,i was feeling more vulnerable than you can nv imagine :x

 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Day 19 - 6 may 
 Finally marks the 11'th day of work !!! finally over :D and now just received your whatapp , which means you're  a free man now :) tmr i will be gone for genting :( which means i doubt i can text ya :3 sigh ...but i guess you will have lotsa girls to text :( hmmph ~ 

ah see you on wed <3


sigh i made you disappointed + angry :( but really i didnt mean to not tell u ! becase it really slipped of my mind , i thought i did and all ......11 days of work isnt a joke :( hope you dont get mad at me for long :'( dont wanna spoil this feeling of getting to see you soon in just no time :(

Day 18 - 5 may

Today had no piano lessons because it;s a holiday i guessed :x haven had lessons for a long LONG LONG TIME :x!!! anyways went to work ~ 
 AND AND I SAW MY SECONDARY SCH FRIEND WORKING !


he owns his own business and he was having some workshop for plant decoration stuff..pretty cool !!! didnt have time to catch up with him as i didnt have any breaks!!! LOL after work while we were washing etc....the 
DELIFRANCE ppl gave us a lot of food ...imagine 4 of us working and each of us had a bag full of food ^^ and the girl told me that someone from there said i'm (XXXXXX) omg blush!!! later u say i BHB !!! so i shant type it here :P


anyways my friend min quan waited for me to end work and we chill at starbucks...chat for like till midnight and i trained home !!! my phone was in silent mode and it was in my bag:/ i didnt know u called !!! TWICE :'( hope u will call tmr before i leave for genting and seeyou on WED :D:D:D


so tired , doesnt feel like a saturday to me and all my energey drained alrd :(  


10/11 day working ....OH MAN 

Day 17 - 4 may


0216AM: its raining heavily ,i wished you were here with me , cuddling tgt underneath the blanky <3

Day 16 - 3 may


Work started at 4 today therefore i cld wake up later than usual after such a LONG LONG TIME ^^ !!! heh..today had to go to ps outlet ....which i dont really like..:x surrounded by a few fried food stalls !! YUCKS lol!! but there's a curry puff stall opp damn nice..next time i shall buy some for ya !!:D heheheeh


supposed to end at 1030PM but we ended ard 1050 PM and i heard we wont get paid beyond 1030 :( OH NO OOOOOOO !:( 


3 more days to go and i'm DONE with work and here comes my 1 week of holiday i've given myself :) and when i'm back from genting ,you're back too <3 

Day 15 - May 2

First day of work at Hic-cup !!!! lucky i was working at the cashier all the time !!! I wanted to be the one making drinks but end up i had to do front of house  but it was way better :) not so scary as i thought because of my experience as a front desk marble slab etc....just helped a lil at the back when i cld ~ 

I love working at US than PS because much nearer (except for the long walking dist from the MRT ) !  i woke up at 1130 and cld reach work on time at 1200 even though i bathed :) 4 mins MRT ride away >>> but still gotta run between PS too :( sigh pieee but my friend's there so both is alright :D

So many cute adorable kids esp babies ....really metls !!! felt like running out of the shop to take photo and play with them man :x heh !!!!..and you cld see many rich taitai ...all the great mothers fetching their kids from tuition etc ..LOL

 

7/11 days working and my legs are dying !!! 

and today's washing so terrible !!! so many :(

heheh you called just right after i ended work and hearing from your voice i cld really tell you;re damn tired and "suffering"poor boy :( dont worry 7 days more and your back !4 more days of training for you too:) hell yeah ^^ 

Day 14 - 1 may

Its labour day and i had to work !!! without 1.5 double pay !:( only terence & i were working at the amenities department ! but it was alright after all because there werent much arrivals that day !!!


Went to cut my fringe with terence and another friend from the same department! i actually still dk if i should cut or not but since graduation is coming better cut first or else i will look like AH HAI !!!! LOL Went home pretty early and did the house chores ~


Bernice came to find me at my place followed by Kevin,!!! He always treat me damn nice ! He just got back from genting and bought me like a box vintage luggage as i told him i liked these kinda stuff before ...so  nice of him ..SIgh i feel bad :x


HEHEHE HAPPY TO RECEIVE YOUR CALL AGN !! ^^